Anyway...well, wow! I think you all may have said everything there is to say (in response to Michelle). I am not a big fan of the dead horse, but I do need to say a few things. Get comfy.
Michelle said...The Lord spoke to you, pm!! He spoke to your heart. This need to
pray is good since it proves you have no lost the holy spirit. He will not
forsake you even when you've forsaken him.
I don't feel, nor have I ever felt, like I have been forsaken by a deity. Bad things happen to good people. I understand that you think that statement would give someone hope, but it doesn't help.
Don't fight the feeling to pray. What can it hurt to follow that impulse?
He may not take the pain as we all need pain to be healthy but I know in my
heart that he would relieve suffering.
First off, you're assuming that I had a "feeling to pray". I don't know where you got that from. What I wrote was: "I wish I could pray to stop this pain." Being that I don't believe in God, I can't appeal to said deity for relief. Furthermore, there are times when prayer hurts. Take, for an example, all of the cases where fundamentalists decide to fore go medical treatment in favor of prayer. If your child had meningitis and all you do is pray, then your prayers and faith are harming the child. Additionally, if your God uses pain to make people believe, then your God is unworthy of worship. Sadism is not a quality one should expect from a "benevolent and just God."
This is the blessing we have been praying you would receive. Every night we
gather and ask god to grant your heart the light of his heavenly plan.
Anything for the team, eh? Seriously! You don't get it, do you? These two sentences, more than any others in your post, reflect a twisted logic. God's heavenly plan, which you prayed for, was to create a situation where a person was in excruciating pain? Your God, allegedly, has all the powers of the universe, but he has to use pain to "light the way"?
Your desire to pray came from the heart. Your heart is the only part of your
body who keeps the spirit for times like these.
I didn't have a desire to pray. My heart is an organ that pumps blood throughout my body through a series of well-established muscular contractions. It is not a receptacle for prayer, god, or any other emotion.
You can ask him to love on you. If he uses pain to get you to come back to Him
he will and He has. Glory be to Him.It is now your turn to accept Him.
Again...this is frightening. What's a little blackmail between shepherds and their flock? Do you not realize how horrible that sounds? "Glory be to God for using suffering to draw in recruits." It's coercion of the worst sort. That anyone would teach their children this is sad. It's too much like the person who claims that the abusive husband hits his wife to prove how much he loves her.
That means you never believed in the power of the One and Almighty.
Isn't that convenient?
Catholicism was what wronged you. That is why you are an atheist. It is
why you struggle now. Catholics put up spiritual road blocks but you don't need
an intercessory to ask God to come in and fill your soul. Please do not let this
chance to know our loving Father pass.
As others have said, you really need to do your research before speaking as an authority on other religions. Catholicism didn't "wrong me". It's just no longer for me. I can't agree with the dogma or doctrine. That said, I also don't agree with the new breed of evangelical fundamentalists who proclaim Catholicism as a "dead church". A church is a church is a church. Drawing lines about which beliefs are justifiable within a church is irony at its finest.
I'm going to have to stop here.